// Joy//

My birthday was the 4th of august, but since I had some friends who couldn’t celebrate it with me, they chose to celebrate me last night. It feels like I’ve turned 21 twice this year, lol.

I’m so grateful to have such amazing friends who goes head over heels for me, they spend their whole day grocery shopping, cooking and setting up everything ‘till I came. 

I love those days when I can feel so much love. These people will gain so much good karma for making little me happy. I feel so lucky and blessed.

Just wanted to share my joy. 

Stay blessed :)

// When you’re happy you enjoy the music. But when you’re sad, you understand the lyrics.//

// My beautiful and blessed day!//

So today I was at the gym with a friend, when we finished and went back to the locker room this girl said to me: “I just have to tell you that you’re sooo stunning!” I was like NAWW.. I was all sweaty and sticky lol, so it just saved my day that she would say something like that. 

I wish we all were like that. That we could praise and compliment each other some more, especially strangers, cus who knows - maybe they need it? I definitely think that I’ll think more about it now.

Aaaaand, I just bought my ticket to Kos, Greece this summer!! CAN’T WAIT!!! 

Stay blessed ya’ll. I’m sharing my happiness and sending positive energy and love.

<3

// It really pays off//

Today I was at a Yoga class, and my old high school teacher was there too. We talked, and she asked me how my brothers were and what they were up to. After a little while, she realized that she knew my little brother as well (‘Cus he’s in the same high school now, that me and my older brothers were in), and she started praising him sooo much! She told me that he was such a humble and sweet boy, he was so genuine and smart. 

Then I laughed a little bit and said ”Yeah, he’s really down to earth and clever, my mom always compare me and my older brothers with him, because we were more the rebellious kinds”, to that she said “What, are you kidding me? You were so outgoing, and even though you were so young you always made sure that your classmates were comfortable and happy! Everyone can read a book and be ‘smart’, but what you posses is outstanding, you have a natural way of making people smile.” 

It made me so happy! I guess if you really try to be a good person and take care of the people around you - others will notice and appreciate the person you are. 

// I forgot the feeling.//

Today my friend told me about this new crush she has, and she showed me the texts. 

I got this weird fuzzy feeling inside, and then I realized “wow, I forgot how it feels to be loved”. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not an emo-kid “wraah nobody loves me”-type. Lol I get plenty of love from family and friends, but getting love from a guy is a completely different thing. 

I can’t even remember when the last time was I had those kind of feelings, and up ‘till now I didn’t realize that it was missing. 

My only reaction to her msg’s was “Nawww!!!” I’m so happy for her, ‘cus everyone deserves to be loved and feel that kind of happiness.  

I’m just gonna sit here and be patient. I can’t wait until it’s my turn to be loved. 

// Thirty-day challenge.//

4. Tell us your 3 favorite colors

Green:

Because it’s the color of life and nature. It signifies growth, renewal, heath and environment. On the flip side it also symbolizes jealousy and envy. There’s a deeper philosophical answer to why I like the negatives in this case too, but I wont elaborate on it. Inbox me if you wanna know. 

Black: 

To me it symbolizes all the dark times in my life, the most memorable ones. The evilness, night time etc. But it also means elegance and class; Which I personally think I posses. 

Gold:

“ It represents the color of the heavens, and is used to decorate statues of the Buddha and religious temples.”
It’s the goddess within me; The beauty of a female.  

// I wasn’t created to please you.//

I wasn’t created to please you!

‘Cus my mother had other plans with me.
She and God worked together to create a young woman who was destined for great things.
She carried me through my childhood with flowers in my hair and hope in my eyes, never to touch the ground – because who knew – maybe the devil would quickly take a firm grip around my feet and forever imprint his unfortunate in me!

I wasn’t created to please you!

The blessings from the sky and the love from their smiles was the reason of my being. 

But why does my whole creation evolve around you? Because.. I wasn’t created to please you; I wasn’t born to waste my heart on you. I wasn’t raised with a pure soul for you to just spit on it.  

So I say this to you one last time: I wasn’t created to please you! Because my aura has a white sparkle of joy that you try to ruin.
But who knows… Maybe I was created to love you.